i luv a person hu will nv noe how much i luv ther person....

sick and tired of sch...

2005-04-19T11:45:00.000-07:00

hi ppl.... discover a lot of ppl has been working le.... hmm all bcuz of mi MIA... i think i really out le... haizz... retake mi FCSOS supp todae... was quite difficult dunnoe how will i fare... but hope i can pass....

for the last few daes i have been wundering should i continue to study in TP or to gif up now.... both mi parent does not agree tt i quit sch now... so i will b sill studying then.... nothing i do can change.... hmm... v v tired.... certain things i wanna type but do not think it should appear...

i am really tired... but i noe mi mum is more tired then mi... she been working non-stop hope everything can turn better each dae.... hmm bought a new show on sundae.... quite a nice one... but v v sad... i think a lot of ppl see le also will cry... the show a little over to sad le... the ending was tt everyone left the guy.... haizz... the pain muz really unbearable..... i kinda understand his feeling... really.... hmmm... think i wanna stop here le....

sorrie...

2005-04-02T02:17:00.000-08:00

sorrie everyone.... been v v v bz this daes.... after exam i started working le.... one whole dae non stop till 12am.... so dun have tym for blog... but no choice la.... so long nv cum online le....

hahaha spend alot of daes watching vcd... haha dun think anyone will believe mi one dae can watch 20 pieces of vcd.... hahaha good rite.... hmmm.... but wasn't feeling happy at all... haizz... damn irritated this daes... dunnoe y also.... haizz... i dun think anyone will noe haizz...

i juz hate this feeling... haizz.... nvm lar... sad or not i dun care le.... sianzz..... i lot of prob to think of.... no one noes lor... haizz... so fan my dad keep bothering mi damn fan lor..... the more i tok to him the more fan i get.... y he doesn't believe in mi...!!!!! he keep thinking tt mi and mi mom and mi sibling go out to eat...!!!! so fan lor...!!! as if i really go out to eat... sianz..!!!! i am damn hungry yet he keep toking to mi..!!! haizz... dun tok le i goo off le.... damn bloody fan...!! fan to the core le...!!!

sorrie..

2005-03-08T00:05:00.000-08:00

Sorrie ppl... it seems a v v long tym since i last cum online blog.... haizz.... todae a little sad... i think i gonna fail my jap agn... too nervous le.... hahaha but forget bout it... i think i noe from the start i gonna fail... but dunnoe how bad onli...

was a little bz last week due to mani project like java and jap.... but finish all mi projects le... v v happy can relax for a while b4 going to do test for java and then revise mi exams... i can fail my CDS but i will not fail any other exams.... it is too impt for mi le....

hmm whole body ache plus tt i now half deaf.. hahaha i think onli will last for a while i hope... ear still damn pain... haizz... is really v v v tired... i think i go off to rest le....

stress

2005-03-01T02:25:00.000-08:00

i think i muz haf think too much le... been v v bz this daes to cum type mi blog... i am sorrie... i didn't even haf tym to eat le.... everydae mi lunch is like mi breakfast... and mi dinner leh... i dunnoe le... hahaha....

liyi remember u promise mi to gif mi the song i ask u to do to put in mi hp one... still have not done..??? haizz.. nvm... i am too bz le... v v stressed up... liyi i am sorrie.. i promis to b there for u yet... i am too stress tt i couldn't help u... i feel so useless... juz gif mi a few daes to settle everything... then i cum out pei u all u want.....

i wanna protect the ppl i luv but mi strength seems v v limited.... i dun want them to get hurt... and i will do anything to protect them even with mi life.... sorrie i dunnoe y i feel like gifing up le... head damn pain nid rest le...but i will nv let those hu harm mi family the ppl i will do anything for revenge even death i will not let u off...!!!

tired v v tired....

2005-02-25T01:07:00.000-08:00

todae after jap klass go to work... wow v v tired... dunnoe y.... juz feel like dying... hmm head still v v pain... muz have been knock real hard.... tired tired....!!!! hmmm working till like 1 am in the morning then back....

but not so bad lar... at least i study half mi jap le... but i dun haf confidence to pass it... haizz ting tian you ming le... i have a feeling i gonna waste one yr on cds... haizz... sianz.... but i think i will try to finish the studying todae... and hope tt i will pass all mi sub....

hmm if cannot pass todae no words todae... hahah mi life le lor.... haizz.... wanna die le.... v v tired.... juz feel like slping and slp non stop... dun feel like going sch lor..!!! sianz..!! i think i end here le... tml then tok bout mi jap examz...

sian....

2005-02-24T00:28:00.000-08:00

yst wanted to write mi blog one.. but mi home tt damn comp dun allow mi lor... dunnoe y i stuck also... anyway was chatting wif mi mother(liyi) and her friend on msn yst so not so bored after all... hahaha quite fun... muz find tym to do mi project soon.. now still at the damn joon yew klass..!!! haizz.. thanx god next week no nid to see him le..!! hahaha...!! see his face damn sick lor..!!!

hmm juz felling v v sian todae dunnoe y..... hearing tian kong mei you xia yu... dunnoe y haf a sad sad feeling making mi remember sumone... but the ltric v v meaningful and i think it means a lot of mi.. dunnoe y also... hahaha... mayb bcuz of memory... or mayb bcuz of the the show i saw.... juz feel tt it is v v nice... make mi fallen in luv wif the show.. haha i now like on drugs bah.... hahaha... kae kae.. better go off.. later tt damn joon yew dunnoe want wart from mi also..!!!

hate him to the core..!!!

nice nice sentence....

2005-02-22T20:44:00.000-08:00

hahaha... todae at jap class v v bored... dun really understand wat is tt teacher toking about... hahaha... then wrote sumthing lor... now is already 8.19pm... my damn teacher for FCSOS didn't appear for makeup lesson.... gonna wait for a while more.. long no dun cum.. den nv waste $$ taking cab... sian... 5 mins later... we found out he went to the wrong klass..... anyway u all see lar... the things tt i wrote make sense a not lor....

*~*~ one dae if i would to b dying... forgif mi for not letting u haf tym wif mi.... as i luv u too much to see u cry... i hope tt in ur memories will alwaes remember a mi luv u so much.... *~*~

~*~* though tym may cure all pain.. i willingly accept the pain u haf given mi.... hoping tt one dae u will b able to find sumone hu will luv u more than mi... and hope tt u will not hurt anymore peoplenor will they hurt u juz the way u hurt mi... luving au i will not selfishly force u to stay by mi side... but allow u to leave miand find sumone u luv most... but pls remember tt once in ur life there is a mi hu luv u so much.... doping tym will stop the pain tt i haf.. but i can tell u tt i haf nv hate u... as hating u is sumthing i will not one to have it as mi memory of u.... ~*~*

no one will understand....

2005-02-22T13:58:00.000-08:00

haizz... todae a little sad... comp dunnoe y all a little siao one... anyway i think a lot of ppl dun agree with mi when i sae it may not b wrong to leave the person u luv bcuz u luv them... but haf anyone think bout their feeling..?? i noe how bad it feels on them.... bcuz they juz hope tt their luv ones will b happy lor.... mayb they are wrong in the first place... but their intention wasn't bad... they wanna protect ppl they luv...

ever i keep things alwaes from mi friend or luv ones.... not bcuz i dun trust them or luv them enough... it is juz bcuz i myself wanna protect them... but by telling them... may not solve any problem but sumtym get out of hands.... bcuz sumtym they r unable to help mi... and ending they might b more sad and alwaes worrying bout mi...

and tt isn't wart i want nor is my motive was at the first place.... letting them noe they might not hate mi... and not letting them noe they will hate mi fot not gifing them the tym to care for mi... but hu will ever noe how the person will feel... they feel more terrible then the ppl they kept awae from... no one will understand the pain and the stress they r in... ppl can sae tt they will not keep anything from their luv ones... but once u r in the situation u might not think the same way anymore.. mayb is bcuz we used our heart to think matters and no more our mind...

songs... tian kong mei you xia yu

2005-02-21T21:46:00.000-08:00

hahaha so happy todae... i found mi song...!!! hahaha the song is tian kong mei you xia yu... yst find one nite cannot find it... so sad.... but this morning go klass tt tym ask hanning the moon fairy... hahaha so qiao her friend got the song..!!! nice rite...!! hahaha now it bcum mi blog the song....

it is from the nan ding ge er the sound track.... wow think le still v v happy.... hmm..... todae been think wart i wrote todae morning felt sumthing... so decide to put it down... hmm... actually luving sumone bcuz of luv left the person is not no reason... it is bcuz they luv too much le... dun wish tt they will b hurt or regret one dae... they hope to gif the best to them... so as their life will b so much happier...

if it is really bcuz of it they do tt... i think they should b forgiven... i think if i were them... i will do tt too... bcuz i luv the person too much tt i will not wanna hurt that person... dun u guy think so too.... haiz.. luv often make us forget wart we want....

really a v nice show

2005-02-21T04:05:00.000-08:00

hmm been watching the show tt i sae one the first blog a few tyms.... v v touched by wart tt guy do.... it made mi think a lot agn....he sae sumting in the show v v nice.... v v sweet... he sae tt luving sumone no matter wart is the outcum... he did it willingly....nice rite....?? i think not much ppl can do it.... alot of ppl can sae but cannot do... out of 1 million i think less than 10 can do it.... haha a little sad rite.... hmm but mayb we r a little bias.....

i think actually luving sumone not the things we gif tt is impt but actually the heart... the guy after the operation of the eye did by the gal... he did not recover... but he did not blame the gal... but continue luving her....

tym does not exist in luv.... but onli exist in hurt, hatred and pain... agree...?? i have the same kind of feelings b4... and it took 5 yrs.... 5 damn yrs to forget tt person.... but till now when think of tt person i will still feel sad.... haha hu can sae they onli take 1 dae to forget sumone tt luv u so much but may take forever and still cannot forget them... sumtym we luv sumbody tt forever will not noe how much u luv them... but nothing can b changed.... luv is sumthing no one will can ever explain...

ppl often sae tt they bcuz luv one person they left them for their sake... but is it really fair to those how wanna continue caring for u... NO..!!! it is not... so dun think leaving a person is caring for them... haizz.... dun really noe how to continue... tok another tym...

nice show

2005-02-20T00:00:00.000-08:00

haha yst mi mom bought mi a nice show..... it is a taiwanese show.... it is toking about a gal doctor hu luv her boyfriend a lot... but her boyfriend at 5 yr ago where helping her take a four leaf... and he fall off the mountain injured and becum a vegetable... the gal doctor becum v v sad and stop laughing...

till she met another guy a nurse... he is a v v cute guy.... hahaha like to joke a lot... and he fall in luv wif her at first sight... to make her laugh the guy made a bet wif her saying tt if she doesn't laugh at his jokes or performance in 3 daes he will quit his job.... hahaha... he went all the way till even imposing sailor moon... damn funny lor...

but later the guy do 6 things v v sweet for her.... make until i also v touched.... first he went up to the mountain to pluck the four leaf... the wish tt the boyfriend promise but didn't made it, as he was injured and bcum vegetable...anyway he was injured when plucking the four leaf... the next wish was the boyfriend's wish... which was to see the gal doctor in wedding gown.... he made it cum thru wif a few other friends help... to bring both the gal in wedding gown and the vegetable boyfriend to the church too.. there the boyfriend finish his last wish as he died after seeing the gal in wedding gown....

the thrid thing but on the way was tt the gal went out wif another male doctor to discuss sumthing at the mountain there... but half way thru she fall off from the mountain wif the guy doctor both of them were injured v v badly.... then the guy nurse went all the way to save her... so touching he broke thru all the police hu block her shouting " let mi go i nid to save my galfriend..." touching rite....?? but the best part is tt he did not tell the gal at all tt he save her sumore he was hurt on the way rescuing her.... in both tym he was injured, he did not tell the gal wart he do.. the gal alwaes found out from other ppl...

the fourth thing was tt he buy her a 3 star necklace, one tt is similar to the star's braclet tt the gal's mother gave to her on her last b'dae... after tt the mother pass awae... the fifth one was tt she hu made a b'dae wish on her younger daes.. wishing to haf a sky of her on.... so the guy went to catch fire flies for her... he catch for many daes then catch one box... but hu noes the guy doctor ask her out and propose to her... but the guy nurse nv see finish the scence and left... didn't noe tt the gal didn't accept, but ending the gal watch the tape the father recorded wrongly where she saw the guy went out all the way to recuse her.... she cried... and rush all the way to the the guy hse to see him.. where at tt point the guy was toking to the his friend telling her how much he luv the gal... and how much he wish to b with her.... ending where he was disposing the fire flies on her behalf.. she saw it and was v v touched....

the sixth thing... was tt when the gal had a v v bad set back when she failed to rescue her patient she left the job.... and the guy promise to himself tt he will keep her doctor's shirt so as when she returns she can wear it on agn.... one dae when the guy was cooking water... the guy rush out as he heard his friend was injured... after tt he rush back home.. found tt his hse was on fire.. he rushed in all for the gal sake... rescuing her shirt... but where rescuing the gal's shirt he was hit by a pole causing him to lost his sight....

he was a v v nice guy i think extinct le... and all he did for the gal he did not want not any repayment but onli juz wanna luv the gal and onli to wait for her... juz to luv her one dae more each dae.. i think all he did was her wishes but he could make her life better and better each dae forgetting the pain and continue her life.... luv is a v v simple thing... not wishing for any return but onli wish the other party to b forever happy and forget all her pain.... this is not onli for lover but also for friends... i hope tt u all will bcum happier each and every dae.... hope u guys will buy and watch the show.. good show...!!

sad...

2005-02-18T23:20:00.000-08:00

hmm... todae i dun think i did a good job in mi oral... dun even noe if i pass a not...?? anyway i was watching 2 v v nice show... haha... 1 of them is i buy one the other is on SCV one... all v v nice... but have diff ending...

the one i buy one the ending is v v nice... and the other one had a sad ending the guy ending die.... so so damn sad.... anyway the sad story is already in mi blog now i tok bout the one i buy back hm one... is about a guy where he is going to bcum blind... and he told his galfriend a lie saying tt he is gonna marry another gal... as he believe the gal will leave him but otherwise the gal had his baby...

both of them did not noe bout the kid... when the gal noe tt tym the baby die le... as the guy was on medication to cure his eyes.... and the gal was v v sad... but then later the gal tt the guy hu sae he wanna marry one came to look for her and told her tt they guy wanna leave her because he luv her.... so she went to find him.. but the guy for her own good sent her awae... the gal also didn't told him bout the child they had.... and she left....

the guy did not noe the pain and the hurt the gal had till the gal's friend came... and told him the truth bout wart had happen to the gal... he felt so sad tt wat she had suffer for her.... he chase after her.... but when he chase the gal to the bus stop the gal sat on the bus and left le... he was so sad tt he kneel on the floor and felt v v regret.... not more then 1 min he notice that the gal was running towards him... and they met on the bridge they patch le... and they got married...

but soon after the guy was blind but the last person he saw and wanted to see is his wife nice rite...?? anyway they got another baby v v cute... but tt is not the most impt... the most impt thing is tt the gal truely luv the guy a lot and same for the guy... it make mi feel nothing in the world can stop them when they are deeply in luv... they were v v hapy and this is the life we muz seek..

dwelling in our hearts will nv change anything.. onli unlock ourselves will set us free.... luving one person does not haf hate but onli luv.... once this luv bcum hate there is nothing left btw both ppl so y hate sumone and make urself so sad... todae is alwaes better than yst... life has a kind of power tt will cure any pain juz as long as u allow them too.... i think tt is the most wonderful bout life....

luving sumone u will alwaes wish tt that person will b happy forever... juz as long as they r happy nothing matter rite...??? this is too all the ppl i care.... but of cuz u muz accept tt i care them u can accept this sentence kae... hahaha... i a little siao le... dun bother bout mi...

show

2005-02-18T01:25:00.000-08:00

i watch a show the other dae.... a v v nice show a matching funeral... in chinese is chang zai wo xin... i watch this show b4 and i am v v touch by wart the guy to for the gal...

the show is bout this gal want to prepare a funeral for herself as she found out she is dying... and living doe snot haf any meaning aymore... so she decided to gif up everything.... till she met this guy hu is a person hu gets deals for funeral... they met each other slowly they fall in luv wif each another... but the gal got affected by the cancer v v badly...

and the guy rush her to the hospital... but one thing the gal dunnoe is tt the guy is dying... the guy got cancer and is dying real soon... after the gal recover from her cancer going aboard to do the operation... and the guy where else disappear...

as he noes tt he is dying and tt his cancer cells spread so fast tt he is he might die anytym... so he left and went to a hospice... the gal came back to the country to find him... but no matter wart she do she still couldn't find him... till she beg one guy... finally she found the guy... but not long after he die le...

in his funeral, everyone is v v sad but... they decide to smile and laugh at him... as he ever told a friend tt in his funeral he would not like to see anyone cry but amile and laugh to sent him off... nice story..?? i feel tt the guy really luv the gal but it is juz faith... mayb they r not meant to be.. but the people can die... but their luv of each other will nv b forgotten.... onli they themselves noe how much they luv each other...

haizz....

2005-02-17T17:52:00.000-08:00

todae dae v bad... saw the first blog wrote todae rite... haha... dun wanna spoil my blog for todae bcuz of HIM...!!! yah... hmm... still in tt fellow class... anyway dun care him le.....

i think we r getting a little stupit.... as we use so many so call "high technology stuff " yet sumtym we still could not understand certain things or do certain stuff.... and the past human understand.... i dun really noe y i sae tt... but we selfishness of not sharing knowledge will soon lost all the knowledge we have.....

anyway i dun care wat tt means... hahaha.... i was chatting wif one of mi friend yst.... we discuss bout the topic luv... hahaha werid topic rite... but it is also a v v good topic to tok bout... try it if u dun believe... each person haf a different thinking bout certain stuff... and it is really fun if u can find sumone hu can rebutt u..!! haha

get back to the topic.... i feel tt everything is like a book, there is a v v pretty cover but does not have a good content in it in the bookstore everywhere yet everyone notice them.... but no one will ever notice those cover tt is old and dirty but yet have a v great understanding of everything.... and bcuz of tt.... a lot of ppl misses the one tt is made juz for him or her....

my friend told mi this is the human characteristic.... and i believe it is quite true.... bcuz we keep missing the one is made for us and fall in luv wif the one that is not made for u... haha... v chim..?? sorrie... dunnoe y also... sumtym mi myself also cannot reply the answer u guys wanna noe too...

i feel tt everyone haf sumone made for them... juz wait and they will appear.... hmm.. i mayb thinking too much agn... but i lk to think... thinking makes mi have a greater understanding of sum stuff tt i dun understand..... i dunnoe u all like this kind of blog compare to daily life a not... haha.. i will try to write those kind of daily one soon... hahah... kae lar... too many words le.... tok other tym....

asshole....

2005-02-17T16:45:00.000-08:00

todae i went to java lab session... v v angry..!!! tt damn joon yew... idoit..!! use one idoit paper to degrade mi java project..!! i work so hard lor.... 2 weeks leh... hu the hell can remember wart we wrote.....!!!!

he is a damn idoit F*@KiNg idoit asshole..... damn joon yew.....!!! anyway I HATE HIM for LIFE... TO THE DAY HE DIE..!!!!

idoit.... anyway i still dun wanna care bout this person.... head and tail also dunoe one...!!! biggest idoit one earth...!!!

life

2005-02-16T09:50:00.000-08:00

often we wanna choose the life of our own... but is choosing the life of our own is it really the best...?? we often sae we want the life of our own.. dun want a life where ppl choose it for us.... is it true..??

sumtym we may have to live a life where ppl choose for us... but it is not the worst.... haha it mayb tt sumtym u do not understand y they wanna choose for us our life.... actually things they may wanna the best for all of us... y will u b angry...??

anyway i been watching a show.... and it is a v nice one.... in the show there is 2 ppl hu luv each another a lot.. but the guy hu is gonna b blind wanna leave the gal and marry another one... and he sae sumthing tt caught mi attention... he sae he luv tt gal so much that is y he cannot let the gal noe... i feel tt he really wanna b wif the gal a lot... but due to his luv for the gal he decide tt he wanna leave her....

sumtyms things we see is not wat we noe... luv is sumthing tt not everyone can understand.... i feel tt it is like v v simple but also it is a v v had to understand..... luving sumone do not nid to keep them by ur side... but sumhow u still place a hope tt they will one dae understand the luv wehad for them and they will return...

haha... is it v v chim to understand.... actually things tt we do and wanna do is juz base on the one feeling... even when we wanna luv sumone... sumtym our luv will b covered by hate... no one noe when we really luv sumone, hate sumone or even is jealous wif sumone.... haha i think.. i think too much le.... anyway hope i wun make u all think too much....

luv...??

2005-02-15T02:25:00.000-08:00

this few daes most of mi friend r getting hurt.... and of cuz i wun sae anything bout their problem.... but i feel v v worried and upset.... i think i getting a little tired of everything... sch.... makeup class... tt i am starting to forget bout sumthings tt i hold on last tym....

to mi friend hu nid mi when i am not.. i apolopgise sincerly..... i every was v v bz this daes.... slping too bcum sumthing tt i muz have a b'dae wish to get it.... i nid to make tym to mit all mi friends.... especially to those tt r hurt....

luving sumone may hurt u deeply, but sumtym this luv will bcum hate. but luv is sumthing v v nice to keep, and it may make one person give up everything he has on earth to juz have another dae with the person they luv. everybody holds on to sumthing in their heart, if the key does not unlock the lock in the heart, nothing can change the future nor the past. as the earth does not stop turning juz for u.sumtym we have to put down the things we luv and we may get sumthing much more better than the one we lost now.

i lost sumone i luv b4... and i took a long tym to forget tt person... but i can sae i nv hate tt person b4... as i noe things does not alwaes go by my way.... not matter how much i luv tt person... but i noe tt i will nv hurt miself bcuz luving miself is also a learning path... if i dun learn how to luv miself and mi family no matter wat i do.... mi family will b the one to get greater hurt then miself....

i could not sae tt i have forget tt person totally but i noe tt i am willing to put down certain things for the sake of the people round mi....

tired out...

2005-02-15T01:00:00.000-08:00

todae had a v bz dae..... this morning 9 i woke up le..... haiz... got a lot of work to do... morning haf to go attend klass at 10 for CMSK1 damn sianz lor..... haiz.... after CMSK1 i have to rush to do mi jap project..... haizz... write and write yet i could not finish it till the last min.... haizz.... so many to do yet so little tym....

after finish mi jap work at 1.55pm i rushed to klass immediatly... didn't eat mi lunch nor did i haf a good breakfast... damn it... so damn hungry and tired.... work and work until a little siao le.... but after mi jap klass... mi lecturer wants mi to take the test i miss the other dae.... was actually miting mi friend one... due to this delay i haf to rush all the way there... also i did not really have the tym to do mi jap... so i anyhow do le.. dun care le... nothing is more important than mi friend...

one person hu means alot alot to mi.... she help mi in mani things.... and all i want is juz to protect her... mother.... dun worry... no matter wart happen... as long as u have mi.... i will b there for u.. no matter how far am i... i will alwaes go to u.... but one thing make mi v v happy is tt she noes wart she want for her life le... i am v v happy for her... no matter wart cums to ur way in the future i will try to clear all the things tt get into ur way....

liyi b strong.... i will b there supporting u.... kae... haha.... i this few daes dunnoe y so tired.....

anyway to ppl hu is lost in there way on getting out of sum luv prob... juz listen to ur heart.... but sumtyms too many things in ur heart will block awae certain things there is right b4 u.... no one exept urself can help.... all u have to do is clear ur heart to b pure and u will noe wart u want in life le.... no matter is luv and other probs.... sumtyms the answer is v v simple.... is onli whether u wanna do it or not....

ppl juz b happy kae... i will hope to see ppl smiling more often then to crying cuz i think laughter can cure all hurt in other ppls heart... chim..?? hahah i dunnoe... wart to u guys think..??

haha mad le

2005-02-14T23:41:00.000-08:00

was v v bz this daes... so do not really have tym writing mi blog.... can any ppl believe i am working during CNY's holidaes.... haiz...really v v bz.... bz until wanna die....

skip sch on fri.... was really tired.... cuz on thur i work till like 3 in the morning.... i think more of it is bcuz i was too tired..... dun really haf the mind to do anything....yah i think mi CNY's holidaes is not much fun and hong bao snatching like the others.... but i will go to friend's hse to take hong bao... so ps if u r chosen pls do not hide.... u can run but u can't hide...!!! hahaha....

hmm.. i got a friend this few daes also v v sad.... i noe sumthings done le cannot b change le... so mayb gif them up le lor..... i noe u nid tym and more tym.... but dun worry too much.... i will was b by ur side..... juz as long as u r fine i will b v v happy le.....

to b loved is more happier than to love sumone..... so juz wait i noe tt sumone will turn up for u... it is a well match by God rite...?? so dun think too much... a good person like u will haf the blessing from God and u will lived happily ever after.....

and if one dae u get married le remember mi hor.... muz go see see hu u choose... then next tym anything happen to u, i will take a knife and chase him.... hahaha... think too far le rite...!!

i tell u guys... i alittle mad le... so if u guys still wanna b friend wif mi... watch for ur own back.... ahaha.... have those feeling like chasing ppl awae from mi... hahaha.... hmmm... kae le... i now attending klass still type blog the lecturer will b angry one... haha... tok another tym le bye bye

oo yah happy valentine dae to all of u guys..!! and a merry christmas...!! hahaa....

depress....

2005-02-06T21:50:00.000-08:00

yst i didn't wrote mi blog.... may hhave a damn knock on the head too hard tt i forget everything..... hmm crazy rite... haha.... anyway i think i was too bz tt i forget..... hmm.... head damn pain i think got a bum on mi head.....

i todae was a little bz during working..... have a lot of things to do.... haizzz..... hmm.... but i heard a song from S.H.E jin zhong zhao.... a v v nice song... i think to others they did not mean anything much.... but too mi.... i think it is mi dream all along....

for mi now... i think i would wish to have mi parents care and concern like when i was young..... but now i think i onli have it when i am dreaming le ba..... sumtym i really wish to haf more concern given by mi mother.... but i think all her care and concern is already reserved for mi sis le... i so wish to haf sum concern from mi mother one dae also good.... but it seems tt if mi sis is around mi one dae i wun have it le..... i try so hard doing almost everything... but nothing works....

i heard the song tt tym they sae mi parent will watch mi grow which is true but they also sae mi parents will have alot of things to tok to mi... but now wat i hear is all sad sad stuff... nothing good..... i dun think this life i will ever get their care le..... mi wish will nv b true..... heart ache so much tt i do not noe will it ever recover...... all i noe now it is bleeding v v badly until i feel like dying..... lossing too much blood.....

Fallen ill

2005-02-04T01:30:00.000-08:00

wat the hell...!! todae morning woke up felt terrible..... haizz..... guess was really bad.....!! so didn't attend sch for jap.... haizzzz.... sick agn... went to the doc b4 work... the doc sae food poisoning.... poor mi rite.. i also think i v poor thing... hahaha....

anyway i was working todae.... not much thing to do... haha... but v v boring.... i think these is the worst week ever..!! haizz... but it should b getting beta.... hope so lor.... haizz.... anyway miss sch and exam todae.... haizz... took mi mc todae hope can take the exam on this cuming fridae...

anyway todae while shopping wif mi mom, mi mom buy mi an MP3....!! haha... not too bad rite.... hmmm... i think so too.... it is a great but terrible dae todae.... i dunnoe y also.... haizz.... when i was at work todae it is damn boring but also alot of things to do... i dun understand y also... haha mi dae is getting weirder and weirder each dae...!! hmmm... wanna slp le... nid to rest bcuz i damn not feeling well.... should b fine by tml..... hope so....!!!

worst dae of mi life...

2005-02-03T19:58:00.000-08:00

haizz..!!! wat the hell is happening.....!!!!!! everydae is worst than yst...!!!! haizz...!!! todae got back mi fndb paper.... i pass..... surprise and shock..!!! mi kind of ppl pass all mi sub.................?? haizz..... anyway thanx a lot KS....!!

hmm... guess i am still a little mad...... everything round mi.... got a lot of phone cols todae.... damn irritating... when i was in klass.... damn bz... had to go round singapore cuz is my sis bdae..... but one thing good is tt she is more guai le.... juz tt she todae juz had to bang the phone on mi...!!! same goes to mi uncle....

was is java klass.... mood actually not bad one.... cuz i got a C for mi project....... not too bad rite.....?? hmmm... but here cums a big big prob..!! not sae i wanna sae anything.... but dun u think our project too over similar..!!?? big big prob...... did u print wrong or save wrongly.....????? or did u forget to change all the variables.... sorrie... it may b bcuz mi mood wasn't too good this daes... so todae at the lab i was too over cold...

i noe tt i am cold in the lab not wanting to reply u.... but wasn't on purpose.... i really dunnoe wart tt damn test was about.... stupit JY...!! y at nowhere he gif such a werid werid test...!!! mad fellow..!!! plus tt i really forget all about the project...!!! handed in like more than 2 weeks le...!!!! hu can remember.....!!!! if he really change mi score for mi java project he is really gonna get it from mi..!!!!

haizz..... eye damn pain dunnoe y...!!! may got hit by sumthing i dunnoe..... type another dae bah...!!! fed up...!!!

sianz..!!! fed up of life...

2005-02-02T02:36:00.000-08:00

haizz.... i still do not understand y ppl like to step on mi tail.... i think it is v visible for everyone to see... but yet they keep on stepping and stepping on it.... hmm anyway i think life is like tt lor... juz tt now i v sick and tired of it....

couldn't slp tonite.... the police went up mi doorstep....!!! crazy neighbour i have.... keep saying mi air-con is irritating them when they were the one hu use a bamboo to knock it first..!!! mad fellows... made mi parent have to pay extra $$$...... crazy....!! haizzz... like to col to police and HDB ppl to cum mi hse..!!! they so damn free like tt..!!!!

now no air-con damn hot couldn't et to slp... but no choice..!! wat can i do..?? haizz.... heck care those crazy ppl..!!! got mi FCSOS paper le..!! hahaha failed tt paper by 1.5 marks... so no choice wanna plea the teacher..!! hahaha the teacher also v v nice..!! gave mi 1.5 marks..!! hahaha i pass..!!:P hee hee.... haizz... too mani sad make mi a little damn unstable these daes... hope it will change for the better soon... tired le... good nite le..!!

hmm....

2005-02-01T20:00:00.000-08:00

have not been writing yst.... hmm dun think mi mood is still good.... but anyway had walk quite a distance todae... wasn't too good a walk but still wasn't tt bad at all.... juz tt i think i am 70% cooked agn.... hmm..... feeling v v tired.... dunnoe y i feel so tired also.... wanna play ms also cannot.... got patch... comp kena virus until v v bad still... rebooting comp real soon.... hmmm....

project lots undone... v v fustrated.... plus tt i have a cuming jap test not studied yet.... haizz.... wart can i sae bout it...?? hmmm.... dun wanna study but lots of pressure on mi and still no one noe wart thing i am handling.... haizz... all of a sudden i feel as if i dun understand everyting in the world.... like as if everybody is against mi.... nvm.... if i can take it i will... but dun make mi temper raise it is not a good sight at all... for mi old klassmates i think u should noe wart i mean by tt.... haizz....

shit..... guess i will lost control or go out of mi mind one dae.... i juz dunnoe y i can't control mi temper... so dun try to test ur luck by throwing any temper at mi... cuz i may juz get real fed up and haf a real nasty effect on u instead.... still v bother bout mi sis matter..... i think sum ppl noes bout the whole matter.... i dun tok when i am angry doesn't mean i am alrite... i not..!!! and to mi god mother(Liyi) is u see bout this thing gif mi sum tym to settle mi emotion b4 getting back to u..... and i promise i will tell u all i noe ...

damn it...!! juz throw mi temper le..... i juz dun understand y mi 2 brothers juz haf to quarrel... and make mi whole hse in a mess...!!! i juz dun like to throw mi temper...!!! but everyone is juz waiting for mi...!!! wart the hell.....!!! plus i cane mi brother.... i dun understand wart came up to mi.... i dun wanna cane him one... i juz wanna scare him but then y he did tt.... i swear i nv felt good caning mi brother...!! is juz tt i dun understand y they wanna quarrel... no one at hm i am the elderest... i am suspose to take care of them.... yet i couldn't control them.... y...??????? i dun noe wart shoud i expect in anyone anymore.... damn fed up...!!

SiCk aNd TiReD.....

2005-01-30T03:06:00.000-08:00

i am feel damn trouble this daes..... make until i do not have any mood to do anything at all..!!!! haizz... but there is nothing i can do and i wish to do le..... dun wish to think anymore.... i hate the life i am living... hate the people hu want to hurt mi and my family...!!!

Stern warning to anyone hu want or think tt hurting mi and mi family is fun... NO it is not..!!!! stop playing wif mi mood...!!! u might see a v irritating side of mi...!! and i will not allow anyone to hurt them...!!! final and last warning to anybody hu thinks of tt...!!!

One dae when i burst out, u might not like tt side of mi...!! dun care how good friend u r wif mi b4...!!! i am a revengful person and will not gif up revenge tt easily......!!! to those hu thinks tt they haf nv hurt mi b4, u might not wanna see these... i am sorrie to let the others felt bad bout this.... but dun feel upset or wart it is not for u.... :P

hmm... i not in a good mood these daes.... so dun blame mi... kae kae....

SiCk iS a tErRibLe tHiNg In Th3 wOrLd...

2005-01-29T02:25:00.000-08:00

Haizz..... damn sick todae... had saw a chinese doctor.... WOW... and the medician is like....!!!!!! haizzz..... Damn it.... so ku....!! wanna die drinking it... sumore had to drink more than 2 tym......

had to work todae.... mayb bcuz sick i damn tired.... couldn't think bout anything much.... tok to mi laopo todae v v funny... haha i told her tt i am willing to change her for another laopo..... hahaa hope she would not b tt angry.... haha... was onli joking.... oo yah cy pls do not find mi another one.... quite please with this one le... hahaha... but still damn jealous mi laopo too mani darling and lao gong.... haizz.... wat can i do..!!! HELP...!!!

hmmm..... thinking of slping but wanna complete this blog real soon... so guess wun have a good nite.... being a damn turtle still... hahaha the back of mi neck still damn red... guess mi skin will soon peel off.... haizz.... no choice leave it like tt bah...

nothing much to tok since i am working one whole dae todae..... but was still damn tired..... project have to b completed yet still so much undone.... haizz.... gonna spend the next week in a hectic mode le....

TiReD....

2005-01-28T16:55:00.000-08:00

lolz.. it is 4.55 in the morning yet i am still working on mi blog.... anyway wanted to finish up soon too... haha.... had a v tiring dae working todae... alot of things to be done but alwaes short of tym... and best part is tt i have to go to work at 6 yet i have not rest....

But i think is fine with mi.... juz tt had a v bad sunburn yst... which make slping a little difficult.... but not too bad.... receive 1 or 2 care and concern todae.... v happy.... got a col from benny todae asking if i am getting better... thanks.. i am....
Haha... but stll doesn't change the fact i look like a red turtle... had went to a adventure thingy given by my lecturer yst... v fun... but 5 hrs under the sun will make most ppl look like a red turtle... especially ppl like mi "fast to cook, good to eat"... lol dun really noe bout the eating part but was really cooked..!! hahaha got bak kua for new year le.... hahaha.... FOC sumore...!! hahaha...

Anyway sch is gonna reopen..... Sianz.... alot of project not started yet..... haizz.... muz chiong a lot liao lor..... guess not nid to slp sum tym agn... hee hee.... hmm decide to save more money.... new year cuming a lot of ppl to take care of... especially mi laopo..!! hahaha... kae kae... cannot continue le... otherwise i will b a panda tml and will hang on any bamboo i see liao... hahaha...