MY HEART IS BREAKING ;

Tuesday, April 19, 2005

hi ppl.... discover a lot of ppl has been working le.... hmm all bcuz of mi MIA... i think i really out le... haizz... retake mi FCSOS supp todae... was quite difficult dunnoe how will i fare... but hope i can pass....

for the last few daes i have been wundering should i continue to study in TP or to gif up now.... both mi parent does not agree tt i quit sch now... so i will b sill studying then.... nothing i do can change.... hmm... v v tired.... certain things i wanna type but do not think it should appear...

i am really tired... but i noe mi mum is more tired then mi... she been working non-stop hope everything can turn better each dae.... hmm bought a new show on sundae.... quite a nice one... but v v sad... i think a lot of ppl see le also will cry... the show a little over to sad le... the ending was tt everyone left the guy.... haizz... the pain muz really unbearable..... i kinda understand his feeling... really.... hmmm... think i wanna stop here le....

i will be waiting fer you-
11:45 AM

Saturday, April 02, 2005

sorrie everyone.... been v v v bz this daes.... after exam i started working le.... one whole dae non stop till 12am.... so dun have tym for blog... but no choice la.... so long nv cum online le....

hahaha spend alot of daes watching vcd... haha dun think anyone will believe mi one dae can watch 20 pieces of vcd.... hahaha good rite.... hmmm.... but wasn't feeling happy at all... haizz... damn irritated this daes... dunnoe y also.... haizz... i dun think anyone will noe haizz...

i juz hate this feeling... haizz.... nvm lar... sad or not i dun care le.... sianzz..... i lot of prob to think of.... no one noes lor... haizz... so fan my dad keep bothering mi damn fan lor..... the more i tok to him the more fan i get.... y he doesn't believe in mi...!!!!! he keep thinking tt mi and mi mom and mi sibling go out to eat...!!!! so fan lor...!!! as if i really go out to eat... sianz..!!!! i am damn hungry yet he keep toking to mi..!!! haizz... dun tok le i goo off le.... damn bloody fan...!! fan to the core le...!!!

i will be waiting fer you-
2:17 AM

Tuesday, March 08, 2005

Sorrie ppl... it seems a v v long tym since i last cum online blog.... haizz.... todae a little sad... i think i gonna fail my jap agn... too nervous le.... hahaha but forget bout it... i think i noe from the start i gonna fail... but dunnoe how bad onli...

was a little bz last week due to mani project like java and jap.... but finish all mi projects le... v v happy can relax for a while b4 going to do test for java and then revise mi exams... i can fail my CDS but i will not fail any other exams.... it is too impt for mi le....

hmm whole body ache plus tt i now half deaf.. hahaha i think onli will last for a while i hope... ear still damn pain... haizz... is really v v v tired... i think i go off to rest le....

i will be waiting fer you-
12:05 AM

Tuesday, March 01, 2005

i think i muz haf think too much le... been v v bz this daes to cum type mi blog... i am sorrie... i didn't even haf tym to eat le.... everydae mi lunch is like mi breakfast... and mi dinner leh... i dunnoe le... hahaha....

liyi remember u promise mi to gif mi the song i ask u to do to put in mi hp one... still have not done..??? haizz.. nvm... i am too bz le... v v stressed up... liyi i am sorrie.. i promis to b there for u yet... i am too stress tt i couldn't help u... i feel so useless... juz gif mi a few daes to settle everything... then i cum out pei u all u want.....

i wanna protect the ppl i luv but mi strength seems v v limited.... i dun want them to get hurt... and i will do anything to protect them even with mi life.... sorrie i dunnoe y i feel like gifing up le... head damn pain nid rest le...but i will nv let those hu harm mi family the ppl i will do anything for revenge even death i will not let u off...!!!

i will be waiting fer you-
2:25 AM

Friday, February 25, 2005

todae after jap klass go to work... wow v v tired... dunnoe y.... juz feel like dying... hmm head still v v pain... muz have been knock real hard.... tired tired....!!!! hmmm working till like 1 am in the morning then back....

but not so bad lar... at least i study half mi jap le... but i dun haf confidence to pass it... haizz ting tian you ming le... i have a feeling i gonna waste one yr on cds... haizz... sianz.... but i think i will try to finish the studying todae... and hope tt i will pass all mi sub....

hmm if cannot pass todae no words todae... hahah mi life le lor.... haizz.... wanna die le.... v v tired.... juz feel like slping and slp non stop... dun feel like going sch lor..!!! sianz..!! i think i end here le... tml then tok bout mi jap examz...

i will be waiting fer you-
1:07 AM

Thursday, February 24, 2005

yst wanted to write mi blog one.. but mi home tt damn comp dun allow mi lor... dunnoe y i stuck also... anyway was chatting wif mi mother(liyi) and her friend on msn yst so not so bored after all... hahaha quite fun... muz find tym to do mi project soon.. now still at the damn joon yew klass..!!! haizz.. thanx god next week no nid to see him le..!! hahaha...!! see his face damn sick lor..!!!

hmm juz felling v v sian todae dunnoe y..... hearing tian kong mei you xia yu... dunnoe y haf a sad sad feeling making mi remember sumone... but the ltric v v meaningful and i think it means a lot of mi.. dunnoe y also... hahaha... mayb bcuz of memory... or mayb bcuz of the the show i saw.... juz feel tt it is v v nice... make mi fallen in luv wif the show.. haha i now like on drugs bah.... hahaha... kae kae.. better go off.. later tt damn joon yew dunnoe want wart from mi also..!!!

hate him to the core..!!!

i will be waiting fer you-
12:28 AM

Tuesday, February 22, 2005

hahaha... todae at jap class v v bored... dun really understand wat is tt teacher toking about... hahaha... then wrote sumthing lor... now is already 8.19pm... my damn teacher for FCSOS didn't appear for makeup lesson.... gonna wait for a while more.. long no dun cum.. den nv waste $$ taking cab... sian... 5 mins later... we found out he went to the wrong klass..... anyway u all see lar... the things tt i wrote make sense a not lor....

*~*~ one dae if i would to b dying... forgif mi for not letting u haf tym wif mi.... as i luv u too much to see u cry... i hope tt in ur memories will alwaes remember a mi luv u so much.... *~*~

~*~* though tym may cure all pain.. i willingly accept the pain u haf given mi.... hoping tt one dae u will b able to find sumone hu will luv u more than mi... and hope tt u will not hurt anymore peoplenor will they hurt u juz the way u hurt mi... luving au i will not selfishly force u to stay by mi side... but allow u to leave miand find sumone u luv most... but pls remember tt once in ur life there is a mi hu luv u so much.... doping tym will stop the pain tt i haf.. but i can tell u tt i haf nv hate u... as hating u is sumthing i will not one to have it as mi memory of u.... ~*~*

i will be waiting fer you-
8:44 PM

haizz... todae a little sad... comp dunnoe y all a little siao one... anyway i think a lot of ppl dun agree with mi when i sae it may not b wrong to leave the person u luv bcuz u luv them... but haf anyone think bout their feeling..?? i noe how bad it feels on them.... bcuz they juz hope tt their luv ones will b happy lor.... mayb they are wrong in the first place... but their intention wasn't bad... they wanna protect ppl they luv...

ever i keep things alwaes from mi friend or luv ones.... not bcuz i dun trust them or luv them enough... it is juz bcuz i myself wanna protect them... but by telling them... may not solve any problem but sumtym get out of hands.... bcuz sumtym they r unable to help mi... and ending they might b more sad and alwaes worrying bout mi...

and tt isn't wart i want nor is my motive was at the first place.... letting them noe they might not hate mi... and not letting them noe they will hate mi fot not gifing them the tym to care for mi... but hu will ever noe how the person will feel... they feel more terrible then the ppl they kept awae from... no one will understand the pain and the stress they r in... ppl can sae tt they will not keep anything from their luv ones... but once u r in the situation u might not think the same way anymore.. mayb is bcuz we used our heart to think matters and no more our mind...

i will be waiting fer you-
1:58 PM